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Space 2251: An Electronic Symphony is meant to be a journey that develops and evolves throughout the piece. This is the symphony in it’s entirety, complete with a new video. (Go to the video page—it’s amazing with the video). The Symphony will give you the feeling of traveling to a new state of consciousness; an experience like having gone on a visceral psychedelic journey. We are all greater than the sum of our parts. Once you see something, it cannot be undone…
Each movement is described on the The Symphony page.
Writing this was a musical and psychological discovery through uncharted regions, creating most of the sounds you hear. It seems to me that the last great frontiers are: space, microbiology, the deep earth (the deep sea and the earth’s core) and the brain: large, small, deep and complex. Space is so vast, undiscovered, uninhabitable—and yet, it may be our last chance for survival.
This song is for all who have been oppressed by those who abuse authority and the systems that protect the powerful and corrupt. It is far more difficult to overcome a lifetime of obstacles than the fortunate and fortuitous may realize, and that is laid bare with these deeply authentic lyrics. Songwriters are often our therapists, teachers and mentors. When working our way up from the bottom, it is often helpful to seek out messages that inspire us to shatter the glass ceiling that someone else has manufactured—challenging the culturally constructed, often impossible, standards that keep us distracted from the more important work of growth and changing the world to a more just and fair place.
Unresolved trauma often comes out in unintended ways—it can erupt, it can be repressed, it can be rationalized, it can be denied, it can be manifested in the body. Until we face our demons, they tend to come back to haunt us in one form or another. In the end, the “gold” we are seeking it not “out there,” it is internal, forming our integrity, our happiness and, ultimately, our sense of self. The insight and change we seek is most often on the other side of the discomfort or fear that many try to avoid. Face it, go through it, and find the fulfillment you seek.
I Will Find A Way
I wrote this song about being lost without any bearings and making decisions. Sometimes, your mind says one thing and your body says another. Decisions are often confusing, because we make them based on insufficient data. We don't know the outcome of road A, B or C, but we still have to make a choice. As a therapist, I often see people struggle with decisions. In the end, we need to trust our own voice and have confidence that we will find a way.
Almost all humans are compelled by the push and pull of relationships. We both want to be vulnerable and open, and are, at the same time, afraid to totally have ourselves known. When we trust in the reciprocity of a relationship and open wide to the connection of another similarly honest and exposed person, we find the contact and exchange that we’ve been yearning for. In the end, humans need relationships, and as challenging as they are, we need them to be happy.
Out of my Mind (Into my Body)
If you want the experience of doing drugs without doing drugs, this song is for you. To change the way we perceive and experience the physical body, we must often get out of our heads, slow down and open ourselves to the sensuality of being alive. There are many ways to experience life and our physical selves, and this song takes on a journey to discover new sensations.
I Hid in Your Light
Denial and acceptance are potent drugs. The journey of searching for, and owning, one’s own part in life’s challenges is a path of great sophistication and insight. At some point, many humans realize that they are self-sabotaging, and stopping that takes courage. It may seem be easier to hide in someone else’s light than to risk being truly seen and vulnerable in the short term, but in the long run, only the truth will set you free.
What Killed the Cat
I was challenged to write a Goth song (which I normally wouldn’t write), and here’s what happened. It turned out to be really fun! The lyrics are so dark and scary, I surprised even myself.
Album: "Airpocket of Consciousness" ©
Album: "Deviate" ©
This is the first movement, Floating, of the seven movement electronic symphony about space. This movement compels one to experience the sensation of floating in three dimensional space, not having the usual anchors of gravity and cardinal directions. We created most of the sounds you will hear. Enjoy the sonic experience, and allow the music take you to another dimension.
Let my flute take you to places… Space is so vast, undiscovered, uninhabitable and yet may be our last chance for survival. Where is home? Can we think for ourselves and not go where others tell us we should? This movement (II of VII) also gestures to silence, an often forgotten element of music, highlighted by John Cage, Debussy, Miles Davis, the Japanese in their making of the Dotaku bells and other composers, who work with silence as a way of stretching and contracting the sense of time.
Personal Space, Movement III of VII. This movement is about the push and pull of wanting closeness and yet differentiation. Notice the intervals in the vocals and flute parts are very narrow, connoting enmeshment. It also nods to the quantum entanglement, which posits that particles can be linked, and influence each other faster than the speed of light, no matter how far the distance (wow!). Actions performed on one, affect the other, which Albert Einstein called, "spooky action at a distance." Could it be that the actions we take affect others, no matter the distance? Should we think more carefully about how we care for, or hurt, other living beings?
Movement IV of VII. It seems to me that the last great frontiers are: space, microbiology, deep earth (the deep sea and the earth’s core) and the brain—large, small, deep and complex. Scientists are contemplating whether superluminal speeds are possible, i.e. faster than light.
If possible, superluminal speeds would mean that we have to deal with the concept of time travel, which most physicists agree is not possible. Still, telescopes are time machines in a way, as we look upon light that has travelled many light years to make it to our eyes, and thus, we see the state of the object when it emitted light in the past, not what it is in the present. Isn’t it wonderful to explore new frontiers? Life is beautiful.
Rise of Life
Rise of Life. Movement V of VII. This movement is about how life is created from elements that mix and mutate, and finally, over vast time, form into life. You will hear a twelve tone row; there is no real tonal center, and all the elements are at play in the primordial soup. The ability of molecules to copy themselves through RNA and DNA was a key factor in the origin of life, and the repetition of the 12 tone row echoes this process of self-replication. Bill and I created all the sounds you hear. Enjoy!
Movement VI of VII from “Space 2251: An Electronic Symphony.” “One may be compelled to search when there’s a paucity of stimulus, and forced to search when chaos is upon us.” I wrote that line about climate change, but how fitting in the time of Covid. Many things we see coming, but don’t take action until it’s too late. On the musical side, I had so much fun writing this movement. There is no meter, no tonal center. You don’t know what’s coming next or how to make sense of it. It’s chaos. Bill and I created almost all the sounds, which are absorbing and unique. This movement is unlike anything you’ve heard before. Experience the chaos and where it takes you…
Endless Space Reprise
Movement VII of VII. This is the only part of the symphony that repeats—coming back to where we started, but different lyrics connoting being changed by the journey. The vocals and flute are doubled an octave below to reflect that the traveler is not alone, even if it is her observer or grown inner self that accompanies her. “Once you see something, it cannot be undone.” I felt that way when I saw how animals are treated in the unending pursuit of meat production, and it also fits regarding climate change and the devastation that is coming. In this cacophonous world, sometimes silence is a great comfort. Sometimes silence. Shhhh…